I didn’t have it when I was a kid. But there is no doubt in my mind I have it now.

9780983827504_p0_v1_s260x420I used to joke that I have it. And then I read Here’s to Not Catching Our Hair on Fire: An Absent-Minded Tale of Life with Giftedness and Attention Deficit – Oh Look! A Chicken!, and I realized it was a fact.

The latest evidence of my ADHD is here, for you to see. Meaning my website redesign. I liked my old design just fine, but it just didn’t feel like me anymore.

Too many comments about it being “clean” (which is FINE) – which sounded to me like “boring”. And I hate boring.

So, I started to reevaluate what it was that I didn’t like about my website. Really, there wasn’t much. Fonts were off. Header no longer seemed like a good fit. Plain white background was just meh.

Back to the drawing board… and we have what you see before you.

So, what does this have to do with my ADHD?

Part of what I notice about myself is that I thrive on change. When I need some juice for getting myself in action again, I have to change something. Even if it’s just the furniture. Or painting a wall. Or redoing my design board.

When I’m struggling to find my juju again, I change something. And it works almost every time.

Except when it doesn’t. Because sometimes I change things just to change things. And I end up making a mess of things.

Like the time I decided to hang some items in my kids playroom to change it up a little. (I should mention here that I suck at hanging things on the wall…) When I was done, there were a bunch of holes in the plaster. That needed to be patched. But I didn’t want to patch them. So I just covered them up with the stuff I was hanging. Years later when I decided to move things again (which is inevitable) – I was left with these awful holes everywhere.

That’s the conundrum. How to have constructive change without causing a mess. If you’ve got any great tips, I’d LOVE to hear them…